Suppressed anger

calvin and hobbes

copyrights belong to Bill Watterson

I’ve been holding up my anger lately. there are 2 projects that caused this, one professional and one personal. I am not the person in charge in both, but both make me want to release my inner bitch.
The work problem is easier though, I don’t have to deal with them once the project is over. Well, at least I could beg my boss not to assign them for the next project or such. As for the personal problem…. maaaann….. I just hope I can stand this person and be able to hold my tounge and hide my smirk and not snickering etc.

So, I was assigned to this work projects about 2 years ago. It was something totally not my thing, but I understand that my job on this is to provide a detailed information about this process that is my day to day job anyway and their job is to transform it into some system that could help everybody work easier.
The problem is, our team and theirs have totally different perspective on the quality of the end product. And the more I work with them, I realized that they think it is good enough and couldn’t understand why we refuse to accept it as it is. While our team think that their work is just sucked, and they just could not listen to what the customer want.
To make thing worse, the head of the other team is some kind of aristorcratic-feudalistic type who could not take criticism, be open about the problems, whether internal or problems that was caused by our not understanding how they work.
Growing up in mia famiglia means speak up or hold your grudge forever. So I tell the head of the other team what I think as politely as possible. Well, I basically said that your end product is not up to our standard, what can we do about it, could we help, etc etc. But this person is just impossible, telling us how this person has to suffer the internal dispute over us, how busy this person is to handle several projects alongside ours, that this is a mercy project etc etc.
I think my eyes are ready to pop out of their sockets.
It’s not our bloody problem!!!! You are not the only who get the pressure from the big honchos. You are not the only one who tiredof this soddy project. Why the heck must we accept second rate product? We pay you to make us the product we want, not what you think we want.
AAARRRGGGGHHHH!!!!!!

Moving to my personal project.
Whew, what can I say. Hm.
It’s just hard to be involved in something when you think it is an entirely stupid GRAND project which cost a lot of time, energy and other resources for something so trivial, something that meant nothing but just showing off. I know that the occasion is worth celebrating, a major change in one’s life but if one’s must ask someone else to be as passionate as certain one is, if one is constantly nagging others to do what other one think the other supposed to do without considering that others are entitled to have a break, if one think that the celebration is the most important thing in the whole wide universe and forgetting what’s the celebration for, then I guess that one is completely deluded of what this major thing is all about.

Just in case you read this (which I doubt):
Hey you, beloved geeky&eccentric one, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. Not that groomed-but-stressed-out you. Not you with that racoon eyes, with the pleading voice to calm your significant other. I miss the old you, but I guess I have to say goodbye to that. Sorry, but I’m not the kind of girl who let go easily. But I love you anyway. Don’t worry, I’ll learn to love whatever comes along with you. It’ll take time though. But I’ll do the best I can. Promise.
And you, significant other, YOU BETTER BE WORTH ALL THE SACRIFICES THE GEEKY ONE HAVE GIVEN YOU!!!!!
So there.