bloody budget!

i was supposed to do this budgetting and have done it halfway. i don't like to be disturbed when i do this because i have to be very careful, thinking and predicting what to do next year. i planned to do it thursday and friday, since da boss is going to go on a survey. so, yesterday i said yes to do something, which also takes a lot of time but more fun and can be done in one night.
lo and behold, an hour before 5, da boss asked for the budget because da big honcho asked for them.
f***********************************************k!!!!!!!!!!!
ended up sleeping at four doing both.
am grumpy & drowsy today!!!!!

and am just out of the next torture: talking every itsy bitsy tiny detail of it with da boss.
right after lunch when am the sleepiest.
*&blgttblaiujym;*^%$*&^^#$@!!!!!!!!!!!

gadgetry

yesh please.......

steve jobs is absobloominlutely cool!!!

feeling blah

is this all my achievements?
didn't i work hard enough?
have i made enough contribution?
aren't i part of the team?
do i deserve what i think i deserve?

why am i wasting my precious time?
why do i have to do all this, when clearly that's not what you guys consider to be worthy of?

not appreciated
unmotivated

blah

I want to run
I want to hide
I want to tear down the walls
That hold me inside
I want to reach out
And touch the flame
Where the streets have no name

I want to feel sunlight on my face
I see the dust cloud disappear
Without a trace
I want to take shelter from the poison rain
Where the streets have no name

-u2-

still missing you

we (me, chubbs & bubulibu mum) really like to play this with neng.
us: neng, where's ....... (your mum, your jepit, dora or anything in sight)
neng: thew (there)
us: whew?? (where)
neng: thew
us: whew???
neng: theeeewwwww.......

we can reverse the version.
neng: where's mama?
us: thew (asal, emaknya gak keliatan di mana-mana)
neng: whew?
us: thew
neng: wheeeewww????

it's just so cute hearing her saying that with her little voice and then gradually become little annoyed voice. hehehe....

whenever i, chubbs or his other onti went out, aa always said 'but nanti i miss you....'
so when he left me, i told him:
me: but nanti i miss you
aa: sigh..... but i will be back
me: but i miss you (pretend to sulk)
aa: sigh.... you can call me, and i will be back soon
me: but i miss you
aa: sigh..... (hug me) when the clock is six (he show me all his fingers) then i will be back
hohoho.....

neng always asked 'but why?' whenever we explain something to her. we will answer her in unison: 'BECOOOZZZZ!!!!!' because she will never satisfied with just one answer.

missing you

went to the bathroom and saw the bath tub where you guys mandi, i cried
found neng's fish jepit (hey that's my jaaapit!!!!, she used to say), i cried
watched bubulibu playing alone, i cried and cried and cried and cried
went to your room, just to see if there's anything else you left behind
the house is just not the same without all the brouhaha, the shouting, the crying, the laughing......

hey you guys, you've left not more than 10 hours and i already miss you like crazy!!!!

chubbs comforting me and blame it all on my hormones. thanks for the big bear hug dear.....