having a baby

Finally knowing what I wanted was a like 2 sides of a coins. On one side, it was some sort of a relief to know which path I’m going to take. On the other side, I realize that I have to prepare myself to face the long and rocky road ahead. So many things to do, tests to take, books to read, past courses to be reviewed and so on. I also have other plans like raising a family. In my case: having a baby. although it is possible to pursue those goals simultaneously, i know that I have a limited capacity.
So my question is: should I try to do both, or should the baby wait?

Try to get pregnant while busy at work and getting myself ready to continue my education sounds very ambitious, I know. Actually, I have little energy left after work, and what’s left I use for studying. but my biological clock is ticking. heh heh heh. Besides, I haven’t sent any application and the earliest term that I could apply to is fall next year. so, it’s like I have a spare time to do it. this option looks more appealing because I can have so much help from my family if I have a baby here as opposed to taking care of everything alone if I had the baby abroad.
But as I mentioned earlier, I don’t think my body’s quite fit to do it anyway.

I guess baby must wait even if I didn’t plan to.
Well, as bono said:
what you don’t have you don’t need it now

(this post was supposed to be one of those topics I created to practice writing. Guess this one’s not working too well. it’s too personal. Geez…. I blew it again)