The Relationship

It all started as friendship. You knew him through other acquaintance, you started to be friends then you got closer and became more than that (though you did not know exactly what). He was the one that took all the initiative, made decisions and demands etc. Then it became more intense. More expectations are to be met from each other. He started to give ideas of being together in the long run, more serious, more commitment. You tried to figure out what you want from this relationship. You wanted to know if this will be your future. If together is one possibility to be considered.

Time went by, he became more famous, some contributed to your hard work and sacrifices. Yet you just look from afar while he got all the glory, pats on his back and all. The relationship was progressing and as was the old days, demands were increasing along with it. He started to promise sweet things and you became more certain that you wanted to be with him.

But the more you knew him, the more uncertain you were about his intentions. Sometimes he seemed like he could not live without you, but the next day he treated you like you were some sort of gadget that he could replaced whenever the latest innovation was on the market. His demand was simple: do some make over. ‘Let me see you prettier, smarter, more presentable’ he said. However, he wanted this on his terms although you knew that your choices will be better in the long run. He wanted you to make extra time to go to the gym while you think that reading will do you better. And even when you finally agreed, he said he could not spend extra money for make over!!! Moreover, he wanted all the upgrading done without leaving any of your previous responsibilities, which means you have to work extra for this.

It was like he was not sure whether he wanted to be with you or not, although after all these years there was nothing wrong with your relationship. He looked like he was ready to commit, but then afraid if something better would come along and he regrets his choice. His gestures, his manners showed that you were expendable. But then again, sometimes he looked like he was sure that together will bring out the best in him and you.

So you decided to run away. You silently build a plan to make your own make over. You quietly grind your teeth and make all the preparation yourself, spend your savings and repeatedly reassure yourself that this was for your own good, that all spent was for investment. You said to yourself, when the time come, dahling…… you can kiss my arse!!!!!

Disclaimer: this is an analogy.