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Funny how fate lead us to.
Iya, memang lucu bagaimana nasib membawa kita.

Saya ingat, waktu saya kecil dulu saya sangat mengagumi tante saya dari pihak ibu. Beliau ini adik yang paling dekat dengan ibu saya, sering mengajak saya & kakak-kakak saya jalan-jalan, beliin coklat, bacain buku cerita dll. Rasanya beliau betul-betul hebat: punya pekerjaan yang keren & mandiri. Rasanya ingin jadi seperti beliau.

Seiring waktu, saya mulai berkenalan dengan berbagai profesi. Mata saya mulai terbuka dan definisi pekerjaan yang menurut saya haibat betol bertambah kaya.
Salah satu yang saya ingat betul adalah saat menginjak remaja, saya suka sekali charlie sheen. I thought that he was so hot (was!!!!), so I went to see wall street. After that, I thought that being a stockbroker was so cool. Working in manhattan (still want to live in nyc one day….), analyzing data, taking risk. It seemed exciting.

Kemudian saya tertarik pada masalah lingkungan. I started to worry about the environment up to the ridiculous level. I was so afraid that human will use the resources beyond its capacity to recover itself, that one day we can no longer live in this earth, that slowly but surely, we will extinct. I discover greenpeace and hated their radical ways. Then I discover wwf (the respectable environmental ngo, not the other stupid-fake-sport association). I was so moved that I would really-really love to someday work with them. that’s why I chose my undergraduate major and I had so much fun studying biology. Kecuali kalo saya harus masuk hutan. I hate going to remote places where I lose contact with the world. I don’t like forests, I hate walking in the hot, damp, dark places, feeling the shrub and branches all over my body. And I hate bugs!!!!
discovering the wonder of coral reefs turned out to give another problem: I am panicky underwater. So, I guess I had to help in some other way.

Satu hal yang saya pelajari saat kuliah adalah: saya tidak mau jadi dosen. walaupun saya menghormati profesi tersebut, I just felt that it’s not for me. I want to see the world, I’m not smart enough to do research and patient enough to deal with students.

Ketika saya lulus, tante yang hebat ini memberikan gambaran mengenai bidangnya sehingga saya pun kembali jatuh cinta pada bidang itu. Akhirnya saya melanjutkan pendidikan saya di bidang dan tempatnya mengajar (well, the main reason was that it’s so damn hard to find a decent job that I decided to pursue another degree. Heheheh) one thing leads to another, she took me as some sort of her protégé, offer me really nice job and here I am. Doing exactly what I want when I was a kid. To be like her then (her position is sooooo much beyond me right now).

What surprises me is that I actually enjoy it. I like it so much that I consider to get even higher education for it. I also felt so relieved that I finally found what I want and the courage to do it, heck, even do it every step of the way. Its so nice to stop wandering, not knowing.
Setelah bersusah payah berkelit ke sana kemari, mencoba jadi ini itu, ternyata kembali ke sini juga ya, impian masa kecil.
Yup, funny how fate is.

Ps: yes, it’s ur mum, dear cuz. In case I haven’t told her enough of it already, I’m really-really grateful for everything ur mum has done for me. I wish I could give back even half of her kindness :)